NICU reunion

 Thank you Deanna of Printsess Photography for this pic!

Went to the NICU reunion today. I had mixed feelings going back. Moments of sadness that we are members of this club and moments of joy that my baby girl could participate in everything and her body did not hold her back. It could have but God has healed her.

I brought a perfect 3 1/2 old to this festival. No one would know the difference between her and a child that was healthy at birth. Some children, you could tell that they have had an uphill battle to heal and need continued healing. Why did God bless us with a healthy child with no lingering health problems? Why does God choose to not bless others or at least allow them to still struggle in this way? Why does God allow some to be healed in heaven?

We were interviewed by a reporter today. He was asking me what my feelings were when I finally got to lay eyes on my baby girl for the first time. I had the feeling, he wanted me to say that I was utterly devastated and crushed. But I was not. I knew the Christ loves her and continues to love her more than I could ever love her and He will decide the best place for her. I knew that Christ was holding her in His arms comforting her.

What did I actually feel?

When I first laid eyes on her, I took a deep breath because she had so many wires and tubes. My feelings were feeling of love and being proud of her. I felt so proud of my baby girl for being a fighter. I felt it was important to let her know that I was there by her side and I that I loved her and I was so, so proud of her continuing to fight to live.